I feel like a broken record sometimes. My Little Man (MLM) exhausts me as much as he thrills me. I often find myself looking forward to his naps and bedtimes, so I can get a break but then I feel utterly guilty for not wanting to spend every moment with him.
He makes me so happy that it makes me want to have another baby because I just want this feeling to continue. I still have so much love to give. Then, I stop myself, because I feel so overwhelmed at times, so tired, so frustrated, so unsure of my ability as a mother. I know my hubby feels the same way.
We have to find the energy, strength, money, time, and space before having another child. The only things I know we have plenty of is support and love. So, as long as we have that, I think that we could find the rest for a clan of children.
I think the biggest thing I need to find is my own confidence--confidence that I am a good mom and that I'm doing a good job. This might be harder to find, but I'll consider it a work in progress.
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